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playing the part

I am here with my confession, I don't know how it happened but I found that

I was trying to play the part of a friend without realizing that it wasn't

the part I was hoping to play

It was only after you had left that I had realized that you had captured

my heart without having realized that I put it out on the table

for you to take

Now I am wishing tht I hadn't played the fool by trying to play the game,

that part for which I played for which I could not be and keeping you

in the dark when it came to how I really feel

all I can do know is to ask your fogiveness by showing you the shape of my

heart while hoping that you are willing to save me from the man I

will become if you should walk out of that door and out of my life

losing a friend

losing a friend is never something you ever want, can never anticipate and the loss of a friend can and will affect you with each loss in different ways

the feelings you have when you lose a friend are always a good way of showing you what that friend meant too you

the loss of a friend can feel like no one has left or you could end up feeling like all you want to do is cry your heart out

the worst part of losing a friend is when you find out that the friend you lost meant more to you than you thought with you finding out by a feeling of dread and loneliness from them not being there that causes you to feel like you are lost and alone.

wanting to be something more

Wanting to be something more

How can I let you know that you are the one I want to be with, when it looks
Like you don’t have the same feelings for me

How can we be friends when I feel I cannot let my guard down when it comes to
Expressing my feelings for you out of fear of destroying our friendship

Will there ever be a time where I can openly express my feelings for you with out
It looked on badly

If I had the chance would I be capable of finding out if you want to be something more
With me as well

a love restrained and a love refrained

A love restrained and A love refrained

How can I show you how I really feel when you show me
A love that is restrained even though I don’t why it is that way

With that restrained love you make me feel as if I am on my own
And all alone though I don’t want to feel this way

Why is it that you refrain from showing your love, could it be that
You have some fears that you want to subside from past loves

How can I show you that there is nothing left to fear when it comes
To being with me, since you are not the only one that has felt
Like that after a past relationship

So take my hand and let me into your world so you don’t have to restrain
The love that you have inside

Just once

Just Once

Just once I wish I could tell you how I really feel for you

If only I could read through all of the different signals that you have
Been sending my way

Just once I wish that you cold show me how you really feel whether it be
Just friend or more

If only I could get past the feeling that you are unsure of yourself
Around me given your action

Just once I wish I could understand why your body language suggests one
Thing when explaining something’s but yet state the exact opposite

If only I could be who I want to be with you

Wishing for someone out there

Wishing for someone out there

When we are alone and wishing that somewhere out there we had someone
Special out there looking for you, you end up wishing upon a star under the pale
Moonlight

You slowly start feeling that someone is praying that you will find them so
They don’t have to keep singing that lonely lullaby that they have gotten use to

At times you feel like you are miles apart from each other even though you are
Sleeping under the same starry sky wishing for that someone to come and
Find you out there

As you wish upon that falling star, you find that it in time becomes that
Rainbow that see for which leads you to that someone that has been
Just as lost and alone as both of you realize that, that person that you
You have been looking for has been right in front of you all along

For my Uncle Jimmy 1966-2008

As We Say Goodbye

As we say goodbye as we must, it is still hard to say goodbye to what
We know, to what we knew we had

Though we look to tomorrow for brighter days, there is still this deep sense of
Loss, of a pain that feels like it just doesn’t want to end

In time only the good times that made us laugh will be there to remind us
Of how we were before you left

All though it is hard to let you go we will have the memories to bring us out of
The fog that fills our hearts and our minds

Even still you will remain in our hearts always and forever and though destiny
Called you home first it teaches us we have to be strong all though we will
Forever feel you over our shoulder watching over us

In the end we still find that you going home gives, us something to believe in by
Knowing that you will be there to bring us home when the time comes

Until that day comes we will in our darkest hours find that our memories of you
Act like an angel that keeps us safe and warm inside pulling us from the darkness
That could have engulfed us

Our pain is eased by knowing that you have been welcomed home by an angel who we
All know and love who had been called home to help guide us home when needed

until our paths cross again

Until our paths cross again

Even though this short period of time flew by so quickly it seems like
An eternity has passed since you left

As the days go by the pain lessens with time but it never really subsides
Even as the memories we hold so dear seem to fade into memories that appear
Long ago and far away that we try so hard to recall

While we learn to go on with out you in our lives we can never really forget
Your treasured friendship, your valued insight and your unwavering
Love that was always unending

Though you are gone we all look forward to the day that God has set aside for you
To be there to welcome us home and until that day we wish you the best of journeys
That will bring you back to us that day that our paths with cross again

The Symphony of Life

The symphony of life

Though the years of life you find that with each passing year
You discover new ways and find new faces that add to their own
Unique ways of showing you the good and the bad

As each new thing you do and each new friend you make you find that
It becomes more of a melody and even though it may not always be
Harmonious you find that you would not trade them in for something
Else due to the way they pull on your heart strings

And as you find the one who will make those heart strings feel more
Alive you find over time that you have now grown in ways you could never
Have imagined and as your family grows you teach your family those same
Melodies that have made you who you are today, while they instinctively try
To do things to the beat of their own drum that hasn’t been fine tuned

While it is trying for everyone they eventually learn those melodies that
Will eventually guide them they learn to play those melodies in their own
Unique ways showing you that what you have tried to teach them for so long
Really did take hold even though they didn’t let you see it happen

With the years passing and the children that you have raised show that they
Now have a family and come home to show you that they are teaching those same
Melodies to their children that you taught to them many years ago letting you
Know that for them you are the maestro in a symphony, a symphony that this
The symphony of life that they are more than happy to be a part of and would not
Have it any other way

And through the years as the family gets bigger the more melodious it becomes as
Each new member enters on cue strumming on the heart strings as they learn
Where their part is and how to play those heart strings in unison that allows it to
Become harmonious with everyone else

being strong

Being Strong

As you stop your crying and see that everything is all right you see that
There is someone there to hold you warm in their strong arms and find
That they had to hide their crying to be strong for you and with you

Even though you seem so small you appear to have the strength to keep me
Here with you wanting to be strong for you until you have it in you to
Be strong for those who need the strength in those times they need someone
There to hold them tight and safe when the world seems like it’s against them
Until you’ve shown that there is someone there for them to be strong for

Right here waiting for tomorrow

Right here waiting for tomorrow

When, it seems as if we are oceans apart day after day and as the world gets in
The way, making me go insane from not seeing you or hear your voice

It makes me wonder how we have survived all this time with us always on the go
Never being able to hold each other for long but I know that I will be right
Here for you when you come home

And thinking of the tomorrows when we can be there with each other, keeps me
Going until we can be there at home with each other in the arms of one another
Remembering all those times where we had that were so special with the
Little time we had

A Walk through the valley of the Shadow

A Walk through the valley of the Shadow

As we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we learn who we have become
As we relive those times that never really seemed important to us we find that
We have some regrets when it comes to dealing with those we have loved but lost through
Not knowing what we had till it was too late to stop the hurt

We over time as the shadow grows learn that we cannot keep seeking those things that
Create situations that prevent us from being there for those who would need our help to
Get past the hurting inside caused by others who could not be bothered to care enough about
How the people they hurt really feel

As the tries to grow long to reach you, you find that you are not so blind to those who you
Could have hurt from striving for that something that you could not get even with stepping
On those who you thought were in your way but only wanted to show that there were
People there willing to care enough to want to help you reach for that thing you wanted so much

As the shadow of death comes to show you the mistakes you have made through not caring
You find that you are no longer afraid of him due to the voices and the visions from the past that
Have preceded him getting you to change how you feel about the people in your life that
You wish could make amends too that can only be done through paying their love forward

the yesterdays, today's and tomorrows

The Yesterdays, Today’s and Tomorrows

In the yesterdays, we were shown that we could be lifted up out of the fear
That we have allowed ourselves to get use to from never knowing

We learn in the todays that we can use those voices from the past that we had
Let go unheard due to not wanting to hear the truths that we didn’t want to know

Fighting for the tomorrows, we find that the things we wanted left untold has given us
A fire beneath our skin that can only be dealt with using a gentle hand that allows that fire
To ignite a passion that in turn teaches others that there is more than the fear and the
Anger that they hold inside which keeps them from experiencing unconditional love

A Matter of Trust and Love

A Matter of trust and Love

When those around you see that you are trying to do right by others
Through showing the kindness needed to help those who are brought to
You that are in need of your caring touch

You find that those who need your caring touch are willing to show you a
Great deal of trust even when they barely have the strength to show it and as
You place them where they can get the most help those who you have proven
Yourself with let you know that they will not let you down

In those times where someone breaches that trust by showing heartlessness that
Makes you feel like all of your efforts are for not and that it isn’t worth keeping it up
Those who trust you the most show you that you should not be down on yourself
For the heartlessness of those who hurt those that you love the most

And as you are still reeling from the heartlessness and the pain it caused
Those who have placed their trust in you show you that they care enough about
You to try their best to show you that you are a far better person than those
Heartless people could ever be by showing that the love you have given to them
Is reciprocated back to you many more times than you could ever imagined

When the world shows that you're not invincible

When the world shows that you’re not invincible

When you find that you life has shown you that are not as invincible as
You would like people to think, you try to keep a good face on it
By showing that it will not let it beat you

As the initial shock subsides and you gather yourself back so you can go on
With what you know will keep your mind off of it you realize that at
Some point you will have to think about it again so all you can do
Is privately dwell on it until someone comes along to take your mind off of it

When you finally get use to knowing that you are not invincible you gradually
Start to go through the process of accepting what you have found out
And either let it consume you or stand up and fight it
with everything you’ve got inside of you letting yourself and others know
who you really are inside

if you stand up and fight it you show that you are that much stronger and
makes others feel as if you are invincible if you come through unscathed in your
attempt to fight the good fight especially if you are not fighting it for yourself
which lets others know that you are fighting because you care for those who
mean the most to you or for those that show that you are their everything,
their world, their reason for being

a playground in your memories

A playground in your memories

As time goes by and you find that you are yearning for something that cannot
Be explained you find that the best thing to do is remember the good times that
You always seemed to have when you were a child and had no worries other
Than whether your friends could come out and be there with you to keep you company

When you go home and pass by all those places that held some special meaning
To you in your childhood you cannot help but stop and relive in you memory all of
The good times you had there while saying to yourself I remember calling you friend
To that one spot as you wish to yourself that you could return to your playground
The way that it was, when you were young

Even though it use to be the one place you could go, you quietly realize that
You cannot return to your playground, the one place where you know your innocence
Still lives and the one place where no matter your pain you were able to hold your
Head up high from the comfort it gave through those friendships you forged
And those hardships pushed aside even for those short periods of fun and laughter

And even though you know you can’t go back you realize that your childhood wishes,
Your childhood dreams all came true, making you the person you are today,
A person who now sees that same happiness in their children and wishing that they
To create some of those same memories with their friends

For Their Love

For Their Love

When you feel like you have been dragged through Hell and back again
You feel that you cannot do anything to prove that you will do
Anything and everything for the one you love even though you know that
They know different

You wish that you could show that you have what it takes to be the one to
Be there for them even if it means making a vow to show that you
Are willing to do what it takes to prove your love

As you pray to God to end the pain from the loneliness you feel you know that
The pain you feel is real because you care so much for them and it lets you know
That you must move on past the pain to show them that you are what they were
Dreaming of and that you have been there all along

You begin to show them that you will never stop dreaming of how it could be if
Only they listen to their heart instead of their head

As they start to come around you show them that you are more than willing
To lift them up out of the Hellish existence that has had them down for so long
And willing to show that it will never be a time that you will move on for
You are there to keep them safe and that you will do anything for their love

Always and Forever

Always and forever

When you feel that you can not stop that crying from the fear you find
That even though you feel so small, there is someone who understands how You feel

As they reach out to have you take there hand, you stop your crying just wanting
To hold it tight but you just can’t help but want to show them that you are strong even
As they take hold and hug you making you safe and warm

As the moment passes you realize that you have been in their heart not realizing that
They had been trying to show you that they felt that they had to be strong
Hoping that they could be there for you, with you always and for ever

Feelings for Love

Feelings for Love

When you feel that you will loose them if you don’t use them just
So you can have someone at your side

You think it doesn’t really matter since you feel you have no right to
Use them just to have someone there

As you feel that you may have to take the fall for wanting to use them you
Find that the truth of the matter is that those feelings are not justified since
They show you that they want to be there with you

When you start coming around you find that they had the same feelings as you
And that they realized that they should express themselves because they thought
That love may not be enough to keep each other going

When it finally sets in that you will never loose them you realize that the
Feelings you had over using them to have them by your side start to fade out
Of existence while being replaced with feelings of utter joy at their desire
To be there with you as well