How Do I

How Do I

How do I show who I am when the world appears to have a plan for me
That does not let me reflect who I am

How can I truly be myself when the reflection in the mirror isn’t who I had
Expected or hoped to be

How do I tell people who I am inside or be who I am expected to be yet not
Feel so exposed and alone inside

How do I show who I am inside and not feel like I am letting everyone who means
Something to me down

How can I be myself and still live up to everyone’s expectations of who
I should be

How do I become the man I am meant to be when I feel like who I really am
Is lost in the fray making me feel like I am all alone in a sea of people

a love restrained and a love refrained

A love restrained and A love refrained

How can I show you how I really feel when you show me
A love that is restrained even though I don’t why it is that way

With that restrained love you make me feel as if I am on my own
And all alone though I don’t want to feel this way

Why is it that you refrain from showing your love, could it be that
You have some fears that you want to subside from past loves

How can I show you that there is nothing left to fear when it comes
To being with me, since you are not the only one that has felt
Like that after a past relationship

So take my hand and let me into your world so you don’t have to restrain
The love that you have inside

Just once

Just Once

Just once I wish I could tell you how I really feel for you

If only I could read through all of the different signals that you have
Been sending my way

Just once I wish that you cold show me how you really feel whether it be
Just friend or more

If only I could get past the feeling that you are unsure of yourself
Around me given your action

Just once I wish I could understand why your body language suggests one
Thing when explaining something’s but yet state the exact opposite

If only I could be who I want to be with you

something to believe in

Something to Believe in

When it feels like there is nothing there to believe in, it can feel like you
Are lost and all alone in this great big world

When people who care see someone that looks like they have lost it all and
That have nothing left to believe in, they have a knack for finding the one thing
That, that someone can believe in

When you are walking down that cold dark street you can’t help but feel like you are a lost
Soul who is out of place with the feeling that there is nothing left to believe in that is worth
Believing in given all the things you see and hear around you

As you take the time to look back you find that for all of those feelings of being
Lost and alone you have allowed someone to be there to guide you allowing
That someone to have something to believe in

When all is said and done that one person that you unknowingly gave something to
Believe in, you found that they are the one thing that you can truly believe in

Will you make the Change

Will you make the change

As we look out at the world we see things that we wish we didn’t have to see
And they bother us enough to either help make changes or just look away

Could it be that we make the choice in response to who we are inside
Rather than whom we would like to be

The question has to be when making that choice is can we live with the person
We see in the mirror everyday

Can you make the choice to make that change both inside and to
Change those things that you don’t want to see

Are you willing to make things right for those who you would just turn
Your back on

As we go about our business we must make it our business to be that person
Who can help rather than turning blind eye and saying someone needs
To help that person

In the end the type of world you wish to live in will influence the
Decision you make on whether to make the changes or just to look away

A Walk through the valley of the Shadow

A Walk through the valley of the Shadow

As we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we learn who we have become
As we relive those times that never really seemed important to us we find that
We have some regrets when it comes to dealing with those we have loved but lost through
Not knowing what we had till it was too late to stop the hurt

We over time as the shadow grows learn that we cannot keep seeking those things that
Create situations that prevent us from being there for those who would need our help to
Get past the hurting inside caused by others who could not be bothered to care enough about
How the people they hurt really feel

As the tries to grow long to reach you, you find that you are not so blind to those who you
Could have hurt from striving for that something that you could not get even with stepping
On those who you thought were in your way but only wanted to show that there were
People there willing to care enough to want to help you reach for that thing you wanted so much

As the shadow of death comes to show you the mistakes you have made through not caring
You find that you are no longer afraid of him due to the voices and the visions from the past that
Have preceded him getting you to change how you feel about the people in your life that
You wish could make amends too that can only be done through paying their love forward

Till We Meet Again

Till We Meet Again

Without you I could not have been the one who I was expected to be when
All you had to do is show me that I was the love in your life

As I try to learn to live without your friendship that I have grown accustomed too
I feel a great emptiness inside that is swelling more and more each day from this void
I have inside that use to be where your love use to fill

While the time passes, every second seems like an hour and every hour seems like a day
As I walk aimlessly through the places we always felt happiest when we just needed to
Be there for each other at the end of everyday

Now that you are gone I wish I was there with you to guide you and be beside you
Until you get to where you were are going now even though you have to do it alone
And my only conciliation is that we will be together again somewhere someday
With you there to guide me to where we can be together again

Feelings for Love

Feelings for Love

When you feel that you will loose them if you don’t use them just
So you can have someone at your side

You think it doesn’t really matter since you feel you have no right to
Use them just to have someone there

As you feel that you may have to take the fall for wanting to use them you
Find that the truth of the matter is that those feelings are not justified since
They show you that they want to be there with you

When you start coming around you find that they had the same feelings as you
And that they realized that they should express themselves because they thought
That love may not be enough to keep each other going

When it finally sets in that you will never loose them you realize that the
Feelings you had over using them to have them by your side start to fade out
Of existence while being replaced with feelings of utter joy at their desire
To be there with you as well

When we try

When we try

When we try our best and it feels like we’ve tried so hard but gotten only so far
We can’t help but feel like we need someone to lean on

When we try and feel like we need someone to lean on, we try to hide away
Hoping that the people we can lean on will not see us in our despair

As we try we try so hard to do our best even when we feel like our best
Is not enough to given the outcome

As we try and feel like we have gotten only so far we find that we have friends that
Are willing to show us that we have gotten further than we thought

When we try, we show that we can be the ones to lean on when others
Think that their attempts are in vain when they have tried so hard

As we try we show that when we try so hard we cannot loose it all even
When we start to feel small from it not going our way

When we try, we are never alone in anything we do and we are shown by others that
Even when we think only went so far that we went much further than we thought

And in the end as we’ve tried and leaned on others we learn that those we depended on
Were leaning on us as well drawing from our strength in turn giving us strength

how do you

How Do You

How do you know when the time is right to let someone know that you are
Interested in them when each time you meet the situation doesn’t permit it to be

How do you show then heart and soul when the timing never allows you to show them

How do you show the openness needed to let someone know when you are ready to go
Beyond the awkwardness that the both of you feel in each others presence

How do you let that someone know without letting certain others know about your feelings
When it comes to that someone

How do you let that someone know how you feel without knowing if they are ready to
Hear what you are ready to share with them

How do you know when that someone is waiting for you to come out and bear your soul to them