How do you deal with the hurt

How do we know who's telling the truth,

about themselves when everyone is acting
like they are chicken little with their personal
lives while expecting others around them
to be truthful with their personal lives.
When do we know that the actions taken
are not a reflection of what is being said
When the two contradict each other to the
Point out that the individual can not be
trusted to show the real person.
How does one deal with having someone
who has said that they are your friend
come out and say that they never did what
you know for a fact that they did in a way

That indicates that they are unwilling to
admit that they said and did things that
made them appear in a way that he doesn't
want to be seen in?

When do you know when a person's contradicts
are designed to hide something from specific
people or trying to keep from dealing with what
he or she is hiding?

How does one deal with the contradictions when
there is evidence that backs up what has been
done and the individual would rather ruin a
friendship than admit to having done what the
evidence shows?

A True Profile in Courage

A man who could have had and done anything his heart desired

has shown the world that regardless of where you come from you must

do what your heart feels and to stand up for what you believe in no matter

the personal cost

A man who has had to come some true adversities in his life with the untimely

deaths of the brothers for whom he had followed in the footsteps of has shown us

that there is more to life than just your own little bubble by showing us that

our little bubble affect everyone Else's little bubble for good or for bad

a man who has made it his life's work to help those who do not have the means

to help themselves has shown that that effort not only is it paid back, it is also paid

forward by those who were shown that someone does care

a man who has been through a lot, shows that you can never surrender and

in the eyes of some becomes invincible or becomes almost mythical

A man who has done all this still has the ability to stumble through his personal

life like anyone else around him, letting everyone know that he is still a person like

everyone else in this world

A man who fits all of this is a man who is a True Profile in Courage, who also leaves

a legacy for which there is no easy way to live up to for whom ever the torch gets

passed too and has the name of Senator Edward Kennedy

A man who has lived up to the name of his older brothers book Titled

"Profiles in Courage"

losing a friend

losing a friend is never something you ever want, can never anticipate and the loss of a friend can and will affect you with each loss in different ways

the feelings you have when you lose a friend are always a good way of showing you what that friend meant too you

the loss of a friend can feel like no one has left or you could end up feeling like all you want to do is cry your heart out

the worst part of losing a friend is when you find out that the friend you lost meant more to you than you thought with you finding out by a feeling of dread and loneliness from them not being there that causes you to feel like you are lost and alone.

For my Uncle Jimmy 1966-2008

As We Say Goodbye

As we say goodbye as we must, it is still hard to say goodbye to what
We know, to what we knew we had

Though we look to tomorrow for brighter days, there is still this deep sense of
Loss, of a pain that feels like it just doesn’t want to end

In time only the good times that made us laugh will be there to remind us
Of how we were before you left

All though it is hard to let you go we will have the memories to bring us out of
The fog that fills our hearts and our minds

Even still you will remain in our hearts always and forever and though destiny
Called you home first it teaches us we have to be strong all though we will
Forever feel you over our shoulder watching over us

In the end we still find that you going home gives, us something to believe in by
Knowing that you will be there to bring us home when the time comes

Until that day comes we will in our darkest hours find that our memories of you
Act like an angel that keeps us safe and warm inside pulling us from the darkness
That could have engulfed us

Our pain is eased by knowing that you have been welcomed home by an angel who we
All know and love who had been called home to help guide us home when needed

until our paths cross again

Until our paths cross again

Even though this short period of time flew by so quickly it seems like
An eternity has passed since you left

As the days go by the pain lessens with time but it never really subsides
Even as the memories we hold so dear seem to fade into memories that appear
Long ago and far away that we try so hard to recall

While we learn to go on with out you in our lives we can never really forget
Your treasured friendship, your valued insight and your unwavering
Love that was always unending

Though you are gone we all look forward to the day that God has set aside for you
To be there to welcome us home and until that day we wish you the best of journeys
That will bring you back to us that day that our paths with cross again

A Walk through the valley of the Shadow

A Walk through the valley of the Shadow

As we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we learn who we have become
As we relive those times that never really seemed important to us we find that
We have some regrets when it comes to dealing with those we have loved but lost through
Not knowing what we had till it was too late to stop the hurt

We over time as the shadow grows learn that we cannot keep seeking those things that
Create situations that prevent us from being there for those who would need our help to
Get past the hurting inside caused by others who could not be bothered to care enough about
How the people they hurt really feel

As the tries to grow long to reach you, you find that you are not so blind to those who you
Could have hurt from striving for that something that you could not get even with stepping
On those who you thought were in your way but only wanted to show that there were
People there willing to care enough to want to help you reach for that thing you wanted so much

As the shadow of death comes to show you the mistakes you have made through not caring
You find that you are no longer afraid of him due to the voices and the visions from the past that
Have preceded him getting you to change how you feel about the people in your life that
You wish could make amends too that can only be done through paying their love forward

the yesterdays, today's and tomorrows

The Yesterdays, Today’s and Tomorrows

In the yesterdays, we were shown that we could be lifted up out of the fear
That we have allowed ourselves to get use to from never knowing

We learn in the todays that we can use those voices from the past that we had
Let go unheard due to not wanting to hear the truths that we didn’t want to know

Fighting for the tomorrows, we find that the things we wanted left untold has given us
A fire beneath our skin that can only be dealt with using a gentle hand that allows that fire
To ignite a passion that in turn teaches others that there is more than the fear and the
Anger that they hold inside which keeps them from experiencing unconditional love

A Matter of Trust and Love

A Matter of trust and Love

When those around you see that you are trying to do right by others
Through showing the kindness needed to help those who are brought to
You that are in need of your caring touch

You find that those who need your caring touch are willing to show you a
Great deal of trust even when they barely have the strength to show it and as
You place them where they can get the most help those who you have proven
Yourself with let you know that they will not let you down

In those times where someone breaches that trust by showing heartlessness that
Makes you feel like all of your efforts are for not and that it isn’t worth keeping it up
Those who trust you the most show you that you should not be down on yourself
For the heartlessness of those who hurt those that you love the most

And as you are still reeling from the heartlessness and the pain it caused
Those who have placed their trust in you show you that they care enough about
You to try their best to show you that you are a far better person than those
Heartless people could ever be by showing that the love you have given to them
Is reciprocated back to you many more times than you could ever imagined

For Their Love

For Their Love

When you feel like you have been dragged through Hell and back again
You feel that you cannot do anything to prove that you will do
Anything and everything for the one you love even though you know that
They know different

You wish that you could show that you have what it takes to be the one to
Be there for them even if it means making a vow to show that you
Are willing to do what it takes to prove your love

As you pray to God to end the pain from the loneliness you feel you know that
The pain you feel is real because you care so much for them and it lets you know
That you must move on past the pain to show them that you are what they were
Dreaming of and that you have been there all along

You begin to show them that you will never stop dreaming of how it could be if
Only they listen to their heart instead of their head

As they start to come around you show them that you are more than willing
To lift them up out of the Hellish existence that has had them down for so long
And willing to show that it will never be a time that you will move on for
You are there to keep them safe and that you will do anything for their love

Job loss

Job Loss

Job loss is always stressful even in the best of times

Job loss can make even the strongest of people have a defeatist attitude

Job loss can be a time of reflection on what you have accomplished
When it comes to what you have done with your life

Job loss will always be a time to gather you thoughts on what you would
Hope to accomplish in the future

Job loss can be a good way of coming out of a rut and finding real direction
As to what you would like to do with your life

Job loss even when expected is never what you expect and rarely looks like a good
Thing when it happens but, a good thing years later when in reflection of what
You have done with your life

Job loss always has the potential of being a good thing or a bad thing
Depending on how you choose to deal with it and what you make of it

in memorium to my Aunt Peggy 1947-2007

A Sense of Loss

As people come and go in our lives you find out who is important in your
Life and as they leave the ones who are important to you they leave a void that
Cannot be filled by memories of them

When the time comes to say good bye you find that you dread in the fact that you
Will not be with them again in this life and as you muster the strength to face the
Long good bye a feeling of emptiness ascends upon you making you want to hold them tight not
Wanting to let them go

After they are gone a sense of loss sets in with you wishing that it were raining to hide the
Tears in your eyes and all you want to do is find a dark corner to hide in to get away from the
Pain that you feel inside

As the realization sets in of them being gone you start to accept that they are not coming back and
As time goes by the pain may seem less intense yet all the while still feeling the sense of loss
From the void and the only real comfort comes in knowing that they are truly still will us as long as we can still feel the love and remember them and keep them in out hearts

In time we find out how important they were to us through the realization that we find that we
Can still feel them with us even years later just as strongly as if they were still with us standing
Beside us and are there to bring us home when we are called to be with them again